y???

I am angry... but I dun even noe y..

maybe I still can't feel anymore or I Juz am left out again..

hurts tt I thrown aside starts to annoy me.. coz tears comes to me without warning.. I don't wanna cry but I do..

I carry on tt facade of happiness coz I had hoped to grow into it..

I end up half in it n half out of it..

y is it so difficult to abandon myself for once n concentrate putting on tt smile for tt someone I love??

I see all of them happy.. I felt withdrawn..

Wat is wrong wif me??

has my heart completely disappeared??

I dun trust anyone anymore..
I'm so afraid of having it broken again.. I can't.. I'm so afraid tt I can't commit my heart da person I really want..
I'm so afraid tt he or she might on turn on me again n my essence gone again..

y so many hurts n yet da right person won't come??

muz I be completely long gone den he comes along??

or has da right person came already n my heart so long gone tt I don't noe it??

I'm so numbed right now..

muz I grief now??

I cannot take da lies n deception anymore.. or whatever cruel jokes on me..

I.Juz can't... coz people can't seem to see me for who I really am anymore..

I wish dis taunt of waiting fate would stop haunting me..

I'm really upset.. I.Juz wish tt tt right person would come to me now..

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